Abundant Michael: Spirit

My Ayawaska experiences

I recently had intuition to experience Ayawaska as a way to increase my connection with spirit and psychic abilities.


It was amazing healing and visionary experience. The first night I saw a brain with tentacles and I checked in with my intuition that parts of it were not good for me and was sending it to the light when I realized that it was the control manipulation part of me! I still sent it to the light. We went to bed at 9:30pm and my mine was racing with new healing methods and other many creative inspirations which I wrote down. I went to sleep at 5am and woke up at 7am but felt good. 


The second night I saw visions of an alien intelligence that kept showing me this alien writing again and again all over my body. I figured out that it meant love and acceptance and gratitude which was both a message for my body and my life. Very moving. I also had a vision of abundance as this octopus like creator that was growing and growing and even though these sharks of negativity tried to eat it they could not because it was growing too fast! All I had to do was put buckets under the stream of abundance to receive. :-)


The second night I worked on assimilating the energy when ever I felt my intestines pulse and didn't need to have diarrhea like the first night. I did vomit a bunch though, which when all you can see is visions is tricky to get into the bucket :-) 
In the mornings the shaman talked with each of the participants one on one to answer questions. There were only 3 of us, so intimate group. It was in a beautiful house in Calca with amazing views of the mountains here.

What are Aquarian vs Piscean relationship values?

Nice list from Kelly Bryson's website (NVC author and NFNC speaker) that seems to fit with the Aquarian age that we entered three months ago. Kelly refers to Aquarian relationships as Trust Based and Piscean ones as Traditional

Trust Based Relationships

Below is a comparison list of relationship values.  I am comparing Trust Based Relationship Values in contrast with Tradition Based Relationship Values, because consciousness loves contrast and the differences become more distinct when compared.  This is my own list and attempt to clarify my relationship values.  I hope this helps you in your process, and please feel free to comment below, although I may not answer each individually.

Trust Based Relationship Values
Tradition Based Relationship Values
God is Secure, all loving, and a super Natural Earthy Divine Intelligence   God is insecure, vengeful, angry, male
Present oriented   Future and Past Oriented
Equity in time getting listened to more   Dominate (historically male) gets heard
Living arrangement created to serve needs   Assumed nuclear family single home
Fidelity includes transparency about Exclusivity Erotic inner world   Fidelity is only about Sexual
Experimentation and evolution of Relationship valued more   Security and Homeostasis valued
No one is allowed to give in, only giving to is valued of giving   Frequent struggle of the “Fairness”
Love is a freely given Gift   Love is Expected
Love is Free   Love is Earned
Celebrates individual incomparableness   Strives to be treated as Special Number One
True Celebration of what each one brings to the union joyfully   Regret for the sacrifice one is making for relationship. (Bachelor Party to say goodbye to freedom and forbidden fruit)
Unconditional love   Conditional Love
Love each other’s free will   Threatened by, or competitive with, other’s free will
Sex as communion w/Cosmos   Sex as Spousal Duty
Seeks expansion/growth in both   Stays small to not threaten partner
Trusts in Universe   Trusts in the Relationship
Values of restorative Justice   Values retributive Justice
Frequently sits w/the unknown   Avoids anxiety of unknown thru business, and following rules and roles
Sex is seen as transformative & transcendent for Spiritual Development and Bonding Purposes   Sex is for Release
Community Empathize in Empowering Ways   Community Colludes in Disempowering ways
Sex is all Chakra Focused   Sex is genitally focused (2nd Chakra)


Is the Mind-Body healing effect getting stronger?

The mind-body is a very powerful healing system, even more powerful according to current research than many drugs. And it is an effect that has been increasing in the last 20 years. More details on this in this article with exerts below


In a study last year, Harvard Medical School researcher Ted Kaptchuk devised a clever strategy for testing his volunteers' response to varying levels of therapeutic ritual. The study focused on irritable bowel syndrome, a painful disorder that costs more than $40 billion a year worldwide to treat. First the volunteers were placed randomly in one of three groups. One group was simply put on a waiting list; researchers know that some patients get better just because they sign up for a trial. Another group received placebo treatment from a clinician who declined to engage in small talk. Volunteers in the third group got the same sham treatment from a clinician who asked them questions about symptoms, outlined the causes of IBS, and displayed optimism about their condition.

Not surprisingly, the health of those in the third group improved most. In fact, just by participating in the trial, volunteers in this high-interaction group got as much relief as did people taking the two leading prescription drugs for IBS. And the benefits of their bogus treatment persisted for weeks afterward, contrary to the belief—widespread in the pharmaceutical industry—that the placebo response is short-lived.


It's not only trials of new drugs that are crossing the futility boundary. Some products that have been on the market for decades, like Prozac, are faltering in more recent follow-up tests. In many cases, these are the compounds that, in the late '90s, made Big Pharma more profitable than Big Oil. But if these same drugs were vetted now, the FDA might not approve some of them. Two comprehensive analyses of antidepressant trials have uncovered a dramatic increase in placebo response since the 1980s. One estimated that the so-called effect size (a measure of statistical significance) in placebo groups had nearly doubled over that time.

It's not that the old meds are getting weaker, drug developers say. It's as if the placebo effect is somehow getting stronger.


Benedetti has helped design a protocol for minimizing volunteers' expectations that he calls "open/hidden." In standard trials, the act of taking a pill or receiving an injection activates the placebo response. In open/hidden trials, drugs and placebos are given to some test subjects in the usual way and to others at random intervals through an IV line controlled by a concealed computer. Drugs that work only when the patient knows they're being administered are placebos themselves.

Ironically, Big Pharma's attempt to dominate the central nervous system has ended up revealing how powerful the brain really is. The placebo response doesn't care if the catalyst for healing is a triumph of pharmacology, a compassionate therapist, or a syringe of salt water. All it requires is a reasonable expectation of getting better. That's potent medicine.

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How can I use Sat Nam Rassayan for healing?

Sat Nam Rasayan is the healing modality of Kundalini Yoga. Done with partners it is similar to pure meditation in stillness and listening to our own inner life while touching into another. It is the practice of bringing someone into your life without conditions. If someone affects your space, you need to question how you are seeing the world in relation to him or her.

We use Kundalini meditations to open up a field of silence beyond normal perception. This expanded awareness, in each of us, is a powerful tool to heal one another. Text from Devi Dyal’s (Dana Verkouteren) who teaches Kundlalini yoga and SNR in Cabin John MD

This video is of Guru Dev explaining Sat Nam Rasayan and the capacity to heal from the state of shuniya. Guru Dev Singh the healer talks about how we can heal through understanding out interconnectedness. He also talks about how you can't have compassion if you have anxiety yourself. It is through becoming completely objective (shuniya) that we can heal others.

Who is God? It is you - interview with Fiona Fey on Lilou Mace TV

Fiona Fey was in a corporate job she didn't enjoy and decided to leave. On a car trip afterwards she asked who is God? She shares the answers and consequences in this interview with spiritual web TV journalist Lilou Mace. Fiona wrote the book "Who is God? You are" and talks about overcoming old conditioning and how to be happy from the inside out. If you don't know Lilou she is traveling the world interviewing spiritual teachers from Wayne Dyer, Caroline Myss to Fiona.

Jaden Miracles tele-session

I just did a Jaden Phoenix activation for Miracles. It is over the phone


Whoa that was powerful stuff. I was getting downloads for about 20 minutes. In addition for an hour prior to the session I felt this "klutz" energy in me that lead to me dropping stuff etc (gone now thank goodness). I worked on grounding the miracle energy in MY 3D (going "low" as Mark Dunn would say) and that seemed to help reduce my body twitching from the downloads.

I like looking for miracles in everyday. Did you know that our cells are full of mitochondria that provide the energy for our bodies and that these microscopic creatures have their own DNA and reproduction - basically they were separate from humans and decided to symbioticly live inside our cells billions of years ago. We also have more friendly bacteria in our guts than "human" cells in our bodies - and without them we could not digest our food.  So as well as telling my body parts and cells that I love them and thanking them for what they do I have done same for the mitochondria and bacteria in my gut. That is a miracle to me!

Afterwards I was full of energy, slept good and woke up happy at 6am

Unity and Processing Anger

When I a mfeeling angry I am use a phase that I learn from Millie's latest book "I'm sorry. I forgot. I love you". I said it to myself directed at the other person in my mind (and from my Self!) several times and the anger is gone and my tummy is relaxing again. It is great way to remember the unity that we all are one. Even the parts that I create anger from reacting to!


(Millie's book is called Crafting a Community - recommended)

Mark Dunn - disconnecting from national morphic field

Morphic FieldAfter the Mark Dunn workshop in April I did some playing with disconnecting myself from the morphic field of the USA. Felt the pattern and how my pattern was connected, then asked them to separate out. I felt them shift after a little while. I felt good about it and didn't seem so attached to news about USA. Nothing much else seemed to have changed until I returned from my Peru trip to USA. Then




•US immigration quizzed me aggressively for about 20 minutes before letting me in (I am US citizen) 


•US custom sent me through red channel for bag search


•United airlines lost my bags


•I worried that I might miss my connecting flight


Anyway throughout the process I just kept going low, worked on the pattern in front of me and was friendly and helply to the officials. It all worked out fine. (My bags were delivered a few days later). And then in line for TSA security I worked the pattern for somehow making my connecting flight even though I was about 15 minutes after takeoff time and feeling anxious. Well the flight was delayed for 45 minutes and I caught easily!


Morphic Field..After this experience in 3D I decided to do some smoothing out of my field and USA field and last time I entered the country it went as smoothly as for the other US citizens in line (still got 5 minutes of immigration quiz but at least everyone did too - and that is a topic for another day)




I am wondering if anyone else has had experience with disconnecting from a large morphic field and what happened for you?



Accountability affirmations

I found these affirmations really powerful - seems to get behind the issues I sometimes have with accountability/ integrity. And how perfectionism and fear of otehrs reactions can get in my way of seeing and telling the truth. What helps you with integrity?

Carol Tuttle wrote:

Carol Tutle

I am ready, willing and able to look, see, and tell the truth.
I am ready and willing to assume responsibility for my life NOW.
I love and accept myself.
I trust the choices I make.
I trust that others have their own answers for their life.
I choose to live and I accept love, help, and healing.
I am worthy of having what I want, my needs matter.
I do my best and my best is good enough.




These affirmations address the core issues that most people struggle with at a deeper level of their being.
Putting a daily focus on these truths will shift your core vibration which allows greater shifts in your life.

God Bless You,
Carol Tuttle



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Introduction to Meditation 9/14/11 - Wed Gathering in Rockville

Michael/Michelle here:
I have been meditating every day for over three years now. This year I have found it has really helped me stay calm and centered and grounded as many things change around me. I remembered when I started meditating I worried was I doing it right? What about all these stray thoughts? What if I skip a day? This week Randy will help those who want to meditate every day but not stuck trying to do it.

This week I am in in Ascuncion Paraguay. Paraguay has relaxed vibe plus a stubborn/proud streak, almost a death energy (they had a war in 1870s with Argentina and Brazil and Uruguay where 99% of males over 15 years old in country died - still recovering from that - that is why only 6 million people live here and it is almost the area of California which has 36 million people). I am applying for residency here because it is easy to get and will led to second passport in 3 years if I want it. Can use to live in Chile or Peru etc or even here. But I think I prefer the mountain vibe to the low land tropical one. Though the people are friendly here and the women are into high heels (which I like :-) it is a bit conservative.  Only legalized divorce a few years ago. it is the Catholic influence I think. They also got rid of a dictator in 1989 and had a pretty violent time under him (however the revolution was fairly peaceful in 89, sorta like the East German Wall toppling after years of brutal dictatorship there. Hmm may there there was something energetic going on in 89 that lead to so many dictactorships changing in Eastern Europe and South America at the same time...).

I tell you the police here look like they are dressed to be in WWII German Afrika Corp... or French foreign legion... kinda weird but I guess a bit better than all the police in some other countries looking like they are in the Army. Almost like I am in the movie Casablanca! Of course these days I sometimes think that the police in USA and UK look liek the Army too - when I seen SWAT team like cops in the airport carrying automatic weapons and bullet proof vests... and read about raids by SWAT teams with the FDA on raw milk farms or Gibson Guitar...


PS We have three talented healers living at my house: Randy, Rukmini and Sandra. Plus myself remotely. Learn more about what we can do and help support this Sandbox gathering place at http://abundantmichael.com/blog/page.cfm/Sandbox-Healers



This Wednesday gathering we learn how to Meditate with Randy Goldberg. How would your life be if you were more centered and calm during crisises? What problems did you have last time you tried to start meditating on your own? How would guidance from a former Yogic monk who has meditated in Indian ashrams help you?

We will learn how to establish yourself in a daily meditation practice

We will learn several types of meditation, including breath, grounding, visualization, and mantra.

Meditation is the art of expanding your awareness and realizing your inner wealth. We will explore the various obstacles people face in doing a regular daily meditation as part of their self-care routine.

Randy Goldberg has taught meditation to individuals and groups including at GWU, AU, and Howard Universities, DC-JCC, and Takoma Metaphysical Chapel. Randy is a former Yoga monk, a Craniosacral therapist, a world renowned astrologer interviewed by the Washington Post and by CNN. He facilitates Family Constellation therapy for individuals and groups. You can reach Randy at randy (at) randygoldberg.org or 202-380-6850 www.randygoldberg.org

- Michael/Michelle



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